I almost burned out recently. I didn’t! But I almost did.

It’s wild how after a little time pulling myself out of that mindset and clearing some things off of my plate, I suddenly want to blog again, make more videos again, and code again.

Luckily (?), because I’ve burnt out before (which I’ve written about), I can identify the signs when it’s coming. I usually start caring about things less, being shorter with conversations, and really just think about sleeping and survival all the time. It’s not quite depression levels, but the apathy that comes from it feels familiar.

(I say all of this to explain it, not to be like “woe is me, I was sad and tired!”)

Riding on the edge of burnout is hard. I get so afraid of falling behind, and then I fall behind anyway, and then that overhead burden is NOT helpful as I try to dig myself out of it. The mental state is just good enough that it feels like there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, but just bad enough that the end of the tunnel feels like it’s getting further and further away. Really the only tip I could ever give someone at this point is to pull away, reflect, do something you like, and talk to a human who cares about your current spiraling.

But, anyway, this week, I actually cleaned my office, I made a video, and I played an actual video game?? I’m so happy to be out of the woods.